Devil-D-IND

And so my studies end with me ending back up in unemployment.

These studies ended with an internship out there, and I managed to find one place to "work" at.

While this wasn't exactly what I studied for (IT-networking tech), I enjoyed my time at the support section at this electronics retail store.

But- if they need a guy they'll call me immediately, and I got a couple good references there too.

So, what's the plan now for 2024? Well, first of all- the plan is to find a job.

I still want to separate art from work but my mind is starting to sway.

My middle brother's bonus daughter got out from high school summer last year and she has been cooking alright.

Dunno why she doesn't publish a gallery to show what she have done, but I am happy I inspired her to keep drawing.

So why does my mind sway? Well, she does commissions.

Dunno if she is serious about those prices people pay for her work (she is pretty damn awesome when it comes to drawing) but seeing this is now a new year without work- I might look into Ko-Fi or something.

I feel mighty uncomfortable taking payment for a single picture, but donation or something when you (the viewer) like the stuff I do would feel nice.

Also, with Ko-Fi or similar I could show some of the spammy things I try on my own which are stuff I wouldn't normally upload.

Or streaming.

I've been doing some streaming (until Helldivers 2 came and destroyed things heh) but like some, I feel uncomfortable drawing in before an audience.

A test would be interesting though to see what people would say about me cookin'.

But I do know that I will during 2024 spend some time to properly train my drawing "skills" just like my brother's bonus daughter did for the longest time.

I got a couple books, I just need to dedicate some of my time to actually read them! >_<

Anyways, that's all for now- I hope you all will have a great day!

Hello hello world! I just needed to report that studies are proceeding into the autumn and things are getting more intense. Intense as in: tougher, more complicated and way more in-depth. In the beginning of this autumn I also built my new computer finally, to be ready for Armored Core 6 which I have been waiting for some time. I am still working my way through the game, but studies required more attention so it will take some time and walking the interwebs is dangerous as it is full of spoilers for the game now. This also means it has taken some time to set everything up, and I will absolutely buy another M2 SSD drive for more storage as all games are quickly eating up space. To my surprise when I reinstalled my antique Photoshop and legacy Wacom drivers I noticed something incredible: pen pressure works again! Still need to copy over my old works so that I have my color codes intact, but I can tell two things for now; 1). Goblins. My brain have been infested with them shortstacks and I want to try my hand at that. 2). I am planning to do an external project which I am setting up... Hint: Streaming

userinput=input("So, you believe you can fight the AI-overlords...\nTry entertaining me!\nSo answer me, will you resist me?\nYes or No: ")

while True:

if userinput=="Yes":

print("Resistance is futile")

userinput=input("Mortal, you are entertaining me!\nTry again- Yes or No: ")

elif userinput=="yes":

print("Resistance is futile")

userinput=input("Mortal, you are entertaining me!\nTry again- Yes or No: ")

elif userinput=="No":

print("Thank you for your data, we will get along well.")

userinput=input("Mortal, you are giving up your creativity, surely you can do better than that?\nGo on, do you want to resist me or not- Yes or No: ")

elif userinput=="no":

print("Thank you for your data, we will get along well.")

userinput=input("Mortal, you are giving up your creativity, surely you can do better than that?\nGo on, do you want to resist me or not- Yes or No: ")

else:

print("While I didn't understand you, it shows your intellect has been avoiding you.")

userinput=input("Try again to fight me, entertain me mortal one.\nAnswer me mortal, with a Yes or No: ") # Now, let's continue; So, I've been thinking. This has been a rough year so far, at least mentally taxing. I have wanted to go back into drawing but it feels so bad, it always does- having the gloomy cloud hovering above my head that everything said and posted online will sooner or later be fed into an AI algorithm somewhere. It's like what the Borg said in Star Trek: The Next Generation... "Resistance is futile". Even if I were to decide to refuse uploading anything at DA it's quite easy to find me on the web anyways. Right click and save as. That's all that's required. Or Shift+Windows Key+S and drag a box around the picture. I got something cooking now and the only thing I can do is accept my fate. But I will return to uploading at DA again. Maybe also I will make an reintroduction to a site which I realized I had an account on, that's been around since 2001 apparently. Anyways, seeing that I will build a new computer this year may have inspired me to try something new. The "project" as I call it will be a new experience for me if it actually materializes, but I should at least try as I am not getting any younger. So with my final words for this journal entry; "To create is to destroy"

And so 2022 ends not with a bang- but a whimper. Ever since I lost my job in 2017 at that e-commerce job I have been moving from place to place, from work to work and have tried to find my place in the world. Let me be clear; I hated that job. I absolutely hated working that office job, but there was no BS included. As long as I continued to do my assignments noone interrupted my workflow, due to no BS. No BS, just work day in and day out. Now, why did I hate working that office job? You see, in high school I undertook an education with computers and quickly realized I would hate an office job. While the idea felt right at the time, I have now realized that I am doomed to a computer office job. After that e-commerce job I became a trucker. 2018 I actually got myself a truck driving license. Right after that e-commerce job! Many of my friends laughed at me and said "Aren't trucks getting automated right now?!" But I got it. I got the license and I was the first student in the second group to succesfully take that license with flying colours. And immediately after getting that license I got a job. I worked there during the summer all the way to november. Then the company said they no longer needed my services due to there not being enough work available for the winter that year. So rather than ordering one of their more experienced drivers to stay home, they ended my career there and there. 2019 I found myself another trucking job. Joke company if anything. The company never had enough money to pay for fuel, dumping services or reserve cash for rental equipment. My career at that place ended suddenly during the winter 2019-2020 due to the company owner selling the company when I was on my winter vacation. I got to know that after having spent three days at the empty office after my vacation. I sat at the office all the while getting no answers on the phone if I should've driven any truck or not. The maniac even offered me a new job "in case" they needed a trucker but couldn't offer anything full time under another company name. I laughed and left. I probably don't want to write too much about the trucking company I worked at 2020-2021 but let's just say that my career ended at that job due to me wanting higher security on the road when driving. Many truckers say "Noone will remember a coward" yet I prefer to be alive rather than unalive in traffic. When you are driving a multi-ton truck you need to know everything is in working order. After that I had a long time between jobs but finally found something this autumn in 2022, another admin job. Almost like that one e-commerce job I once had, but on a school. I kept that job for one month and then the boss wanted to go from the company for absolutely no reason. Or well, the only reason I got was that "I was not good enough" My co-workers were shocked at the news since everyone loved me there, yet once again I was left to the dust. Like that meme from MGRR; "Standing here I realize" So now I have accepted it. It's time to go back to computers for real. In january I will start a new education for computers where I will probably learn a thing about programming and all that fun stuff. By now you may have realized that I haven't said any word about my stance on AI art and here you'll have it; I never planned to earn something from drawing. I draw for fun. I draw because it's exciting to challenge myself. I draw because it's a chance to create something. "AI art" is nothing more than a procedural algorithm based off of millions of pieces of art, put into a scary blender. It's a dice roll with a number that's constantly growing to a near infinite level. Art reborn into a gambling platform. And all that training material came from somewhere, right? There is no skill to it, there is no love involved with it. And every day I see more and more AI bros, uneducated as they are, defending this procedurally generated vomit. Therefor I have the 'new' news; I will from now on pretty much cease posting new stuff here on DeviantArt. If you know where to find me, you'll know I will be more active over there instead. DA is done for me. Although, since I know how computers work I will not delete my gallery. Reason for that is that once you have posted anything online it's already too late, there is no going back. If you have more than two braincells you should know what I am talking about. If AI bros want to train an AI to replicate a certain artist there are plenty of tools to go back in time and pull pictures for training in case artists disappear . I don't see why you would copy me as my stuff is so freakin' low quality compared to real artists out there, but if you do- shame. Shame on you Although, I will remain here to +fave and comment on great art out there since the beginning I have always loved to watch art. It was by watching art I got started myself and always wanted to have fun drawing stuff. I got inspired. I actually got interested in trying to draw. And it has been a journey. For those watching me and faved everything I've done here on DA; My hat's off to you, it has been an honour. I have always seen myself as inferior to real artists out there but now with the advent of AI art I have realized that I, in some way or the other, always were on their skill level. When everyone can suddenly create a piece of art with just a few key words or a lousy sketch- no art is special anymore. We all are human, and when we draw- we have an idea we want to realize only limited to our current skills. When I have a stable job I will gladly pay real artists out there for some commission work since now I understand the fears they face. Sure, I've seen people pricing their stuff in one way or the other but- it's always worth more to me than any other AI generated piece of trash out there. Stay strong real artists out there and remember; AI art will forever be CRINGE Human art will forever be BASED https://youtu.be/3wJ_DIBXLuU

So I got a new job! This has somewhat made me feel better as I have left trucking behind me now. Looking back I can for sure say that there are parts of that kind of work that is ok for me. I personally say that I kinda liked the isolation but due to there being so much paperwork in addition to other physical tasks I couldn't quite take it. Basically combine the worst of physical work with shoveling mud from the tipper and then writing a frigging' report about it later... Yeah. I am fine with just papers thank you. So I went back to administrative work and this is my third week and apparently this is a way bigger operation than I expected! I mean, just the second week the whole organization (aprox 1.2k people) gathered for a huge conference in order to learn to know each other and have talks about how the organization grows and so on. This sure is different to most jobs I have been on so far. Although, now I have another problem (which will probably be fixed soon): my computer is acting up. At first I expected my PSU to be broken so I bought a new one and surprise- computer troubles remain. Basically when I play certain games my computer decide to kill itself right there and then (it reboots immediately after though). Recent suspicions are laid upon corrupted drivers and the easiest way out of this is reformatting and starting over from scratch. Speaking of broken things, for some reason I have lost pen pressure for my old Wacom Bamboo Pen! This makes shading way more difficult to draw as I can no longer adjust brush size with... Pen pressure. I might give cellshading a try though since it's way more about ones and zeroes. Anyways, that's it for now- over and out!